f**k you signed sincerely
Posted by Michelle Kipilii on Monday, August 31, 2009
So it's been a while since my last blog update.. Sooo.. Let's play catch up..
So my Mom has been in Hawaii for about a week now.. I can't wait for her to come back.. Even tho this break apart is good.. Cuz well, I love my Mom to death, but sometimes she can get on my last nerve and vise versa.. I have mixed feelings about my Mom coming back.. My Grams health isn't doing good right now and I know my Mom wants to be there, but she can't.. She has a job and a life here she needs to get back too.. I know my Mom wants to move back to Hawaii to be with my Grams, but that isn't possible.. My Mom has health problems of her own and she needs medical.. My Mom has a lot of heart problems and takes strong meds for it everyday.. I don't want to sound selfish, but I won't let my Mom move back to Hawaii without a good job that has medical.. It's just not happening.. I have a feeling the day she is due to return home shes gonna push it back a few days.. Just a feeling I have..
So I've been on HMR (diet) for the past 2 weeks. It's been going good.. Only problem is I miss my dairy products.. I still can have cheese, so that's good.. Bcuz if I couldn't this would workout, lol.. Since I decided to do HMR I told myself I need to be in a new mind state to do it.. I've been zoning out a lot.. If I feel the need to drink soda (my weakness) I make me a smoothie w diet orange soda.. I've been getting through this mentally.. Mind over matter right? The 1 thing that's bothering me is, I CAN'T HAVE MY MEXICAN FOOD!! But!!! I found a way around that.. I can make me a "Mexican salad" with tons of veggies, salsa and sour cream.. YUMM!!
Lately I haven't been talking to my friends.. I find them a bothersome right now.. I know that's not right.. But I'm focused on me right now.. close friends Ill always respond to txt or calls.. But lately that's been slipping too.. I can't even stand to talk to my co-workers (some) it's kinda got to the point where I have a "f**k it & f**k u" attitude.. I don't know.. I think that's it's bcuz I got so much going on in my head and in life that, yes a good reality escape would be good.. But they always have drama.. It's like whats the point??
I can go on and on in this blog.. But I'm going to end it now.. So we caught up, lol.. I think I'm going to get back into writing songs.. Hmmm .. maybe..
So my Mom has been in Hawaii for about a week now.. I can't wait for her to come back.. Even tho this break apart is good.. Cuz well, I love my Mom to death, but sometimes she can get on my last nerve and vise versa.. I have mixed feelings about my Mom coming back.. My Grams health isn't doing good right now and I know my Mom wants to be there, but she can't.. She has a job and a life here she needs to get back too.. I know my Mom wants to move back to Hawaii to be with my Grams, but that isn't possible.. My Mom has health problems of her own and she needs medical.. My Mom has a lot of heart problems and takes strong meds for it everyday.. I don't want to sound selfish, but I won't let my Mom move back to Hawaii without a good job that has medical.. It's just not happening.. I have a feeling the day she is due to return home shes gonna push it back a few days.. Just a feeling I have..
So I've been on HMR (diet) for the past 2 weeks. It's been going good.. Only problem is I miss my dairy products.. I still can have cheese, so that's good.. Bcuz if I couldn't this would workout, lol.. Since I decided to do HMR I told myself I need to be in a new mind state to do it.. I've been zoning out a lot.. If I feel the need to drink soda (my weakness) I make me a smoothie w diet orange soda.. I've been getting through this mentally.. Mind over matter right? The 1 thing that's bothering me is, I CAN'T HAVE MY MEXICAN FOOD!! But!!! I found a way around that.. I can make me a "Mexican salad" with tons of veggies, salsa and sour cream.. YUMM!!
Lately I haven't been talking to my friends.. I find them a bothersome right now.. I know that's not right.. But I'm focused on me right now.. close friends Ill always respond to txt or calls.. But lately that's been slipping too.. I can't even stand to talk to my co-workers (some) it's kinda got to the point where I have a "f**k it & f**k u" attitude.. I don't know.. I think that's it's bcuz I got so much going on in my head and in life that, yes a good reality escape would be good.. But they always have drama.. It's like whats the point??
I can go on and on in this blog.. But I'm going to end it now.. So we caught up, lol.. I think I'm going to get back into writing songs.. Hmmm .. maybe..